I feel like I'm living in Fantasy Land these days - not because something wonderful is happening in my life - but because everything-is-out-of-whack Fantasy Land is the only place where life makes sense.
Male lead meet-cutes Female lead.
Male lead finds Female lead irresistible.
Male lead fights off other males around the Female lead, marking his territory.
Male lead confesses/courts Female lead.
Female lead falls for Male lead. They become a couple.
Leads face relationship/life challenge. They overcome and grow stronger.
They live happily ever after.
(Or, if you want genders reversed, or same genders involved, that works too. )
This makes sense, because it's logical, because they work together, because they overcome their challenges. Person 1 declares undying love (or endless simping) for Person 2.
My reality doesn't make sense. I did everything right. Everything still went horribly wrong. I did my time, I did all the hard work. I made him such a green flag even his family's amazed. But I am no match for a stubborn partner and an even more stubborn childhood trauma that won't resolve itself.
But wait, am I not equipped to handle that?
I am, but I'm not even allowed in. I had the door shut down several times. I can't help someone who refuses to be helped.
So I'm stuck in Fantasy Land as a temporary coping mechanism as I navigate my own sense of loss and trauma. I am no longer the cherished and much-beloved partner. I have been discarded and set aside.
Where's my happy ending?
